Settling Down

I don't know Daniel and Ashley's love story. Although I could guess it must have been a tough road they passed before they tied that knot and settled down.

They say, it's every girl's dream to walk down the aisle someday and get married. Well, I have the same dream.

But I know my dream will have to wait a little longer. Anyway they also say, I'm still young to get married. I should enjoy life and have fun. There will come a day when I will be ready, like Ashley maybe when she walked down that aisle.

But when do we really know when we are ready? Is it like lightning that just strikes you and you're okay? Or is it like a quiz you take, and when you pass- then you're in it. Is it like running in a field where there are many obstacles... and the fastest who gets the race done, gets the prize. Is that how love works?

Do you realize you are ready when you imagine there's no other person you want to wake up with every morning but him? Whenever you see his eyes, you sparkle from within. And when he's not there, it is your heart that's broken...

Is that how you realize when you are ready?

How do you take the plunge?

Is settling down just a matter of saying yes, or I do. Is everything settled when those words are finally uttered? Is marriage as simple as a three-lettered word that's so easy to say... yet, so hard to do.

Yes to what? A life of compromise with a partner all your lives? Yes to obligations, responsibilities and everything that comes with being married? Yes to happiness and sadness altogether, for there will be rough times. And there will also be good times.

To the good and the bad- do you really say yes to them all?

If it's not that easy as it seems, then why do we dream about getting into it? Are we not complete if we do not end up in happy endings? If we do not dress up like princesses on wedding days.. and if we do not get to kiss the man of our dreams.

I ask because maybe I have doubts about the way I dream about these things...

It's taking so long...

Yes, things are taking so long when you want them too bad.

Lia and Powee in Hongkong

This was a late birthday celebration for Powee's 25th, this was also his gift for me since I wanted so badly to be with him on his last trip to HK and Macau in April 2007. =) We had so much fun. And for two people who were not as adventurous- the trip was so much of an adventure for the two of us. After this trip, I can say that yes-- I want to be with him forever =)

Everybody's a Possible Ally

Come to think of it, that's the most sensible thing I heard of today.

Because the world is small, the possibility of bumping into one person today and meeting that person again tomorrow or the day after-- is 99 percent certain.

What's more, that person may even be related to you, or your friend or your officemate.

And the premise of the title of this blog is this- that every single person you meet can help you one day.

Oh yes, ties in this world get closer and closer. And the closer you get, the farther you want to be.

So, I ask. Do we really have to be nice to everybody we meet?

I say, Not.

Second Chances

They say love is lovelier the second time around. I wouldn't really know because it has never happened to me.

But I'd like to believe that cliche is true.

That when life blesses you with second chances, let's say in love, then it must really be a chance you would not let pass.
Maybe a second chance in love is God's way of telling us that nothing really is impossible.

For imagine how two people can find their way back into each other arm's yet, once again... after all the hurt and pain? Oh yes, when the storm has passed, here comes life's little surprises. And like a child, you come running to get it.

So here's to their second chance at love.

And here's praying I'll see this sweet love story to the end

Hopefully, forever wishing forever this time is true. =)

Thunder Cats (3)

"Call this an unfair generalization if you must, but old people are no good at everything."
--Moe Szyslak (The Simpsons)

This is a perfect line for the Thunder Cats.

Thunder Cats (2)

Nahulaan ni Ace yung dalawa.

Pero nahirapan siya sa pangatlo.

This blog is for poor Ace.

Thunder Cats

Aged. Not necessarily wiser just older.
Women. Chismosa na women
To refer to three women of this jungle


Ace is curious.

When I was sent out in the jungle, I never thought I'd come out this strong.

There were wild animals out there. Tigers, foxes, lions, pigs, alligators and snakes. Big and frightening wild animals. But my initial fear came after I met the Thunder Cats.

They're the star. They always want to be the star of this jungle. Always wanting to get the attention. Always setting the rules. They always talked about me. Or at least asked about me from other people. I wonder what interests them so much about my life.

At that time, I was like a child who wanted to be loved by everything and everyone around me. And so I thought I needed their appreciation. I thought I wanted them to appreciate and recognize me.

But thank God, their true colors showed.

The thunder cats are the worst creatures there are in the Queen's jungle.

They hate the Eel (pronounced as "ail") because she knows all the stories. While they, only feast on leftovers.

They abhor pretty cats, and other animals in the jungle. Simply because they are old. And they aged ungracefully.
Having the same denominator I guess- they are either widowed, separated, annulled, or second partners. They don't have happy lovelives.

Poor, poor thunder cats.

They hate me too.
But they loved to talk about me and my love life. Maybe because they envy me. Hahaha.

They hate me because I never tried to please them even as I thought I needed their nod.
I simply wasn't raised to please other people just so I am appreciated.

But there are times the thunder cats win over me. Just like today and last tuesday. Well, it's a really small world.
And one way or the other I would need them in this Queen's jungle-- sabi nga nila, gamitan lang yan.

At marunong din ako nun.

But unlike any other, nevertheless I walk with my head up high.

Kasi ako, sa trabaho lang ako gagamit. Hindi ako plastic sa lahat ng oras.

The Thunder Cats are the loud elder women of this Queen's jungle.

One is simply loud and ugly.
One has a long hair. She's also ugly.
And one is pretending to be nice with the TV world, but she's old enough to jive with them.

Sorry I can't describe them further for the lack of things to say.

They are the thunder cats I love. Because they make me smile all the time.

I smile at their misfortunes. I smile at their invented stories. I smile at their seemingly unfortunate lovelives.

I smile, because they hate me.

And whoever hates, loses. =)

More photos of the Makati Standoff

Now I understand why everybody was telling me they saw me over at ABS-CBN more than they saw me in GMA.
=)

Got these from abs-cbnnews.com

Happyness

Lately, I've been asking, am I really happy at what I do? Is this the job that I really want? Are there any other options?

Of course there are, you'd say. Life is full of opportunities waiting to happen, there are options everywhere. Maybe you'd say, it's just up for me to really look around, see for myself and take the plunge.

I have often encountered that feeling when I'm just too tired to get up to go to work. Sometimes I feel my passion has changed, maybe it's not anymore news. Or maybe I'm no longer driven by the challenge of covering news events.

In the other arenas of my life, I am happy. My family, my friends, my lovelife, and everything else except for my career-- I have doubts.

Maybe because it's not just about getting the job that you want that really matters. Maybe it's the longing for a more friendly and hospitable environment at work- a more conducive environment for growth, or more room for professionalism.

I don't have misgivings about the job that I have now. I know it's a lot of other people's dream to be where I am now- so like Powee always says, I should appreciate this and be grateful I am here.

But really, am I happy to be here?

I guess not. I miss those days when I can just enjoy this work and not worry.

Oh well, maybe the pressure comes from the fact that I am working for one of the country's top tv stations.

Anyway, I came here to work and earn money. I'll try to enjoy it for now.

My passion can come again later.

Reality Check

This is my favorite picture of Powee and I together.

Don't we look like each other already?

His smile is just one of the million reasons I can say, I found the man of my life. =)

Oh yes, life is so good.

Coincidences

You know that movie, Serendipity?

How many coincidences were there in that movie?

Sometimes, life has a way of making us think about the things that happen around us. There are days we feel we already experienced this one thing, and it dates us back to the past. Or how we sometimes imagine things to happen-- and takes us to the future.

Not all our wanderings happen the way we wonder about them.. but often, they do happen and I guess that's when coincidences occur.

Imagine this.

Your ex getting married the day after you and your current boyfriend celebrates your monthsarry together? Then the day after the wedding is your current boyfriend's birthday? And the next day is your ex boyfriend who just got married's birthday.

Was that coincidence or what?

It's a really funnny week of coincidences.

Good thing I'm not bitter. I'm not having a wedding after the ex's birthday.

In anticipation

Hongkong I can't wait for you.

I'm soo excited!!!! :)

Lovefull 2008

My relationship with Powee is one- if not the best thing that ever happened to me.
Yes, it happened when we both least expected it and it lasts while we both wonder how...

There were rocky roads along the way.. and we know just how much we try every single day to make it work the way we want it to be...

But yes, again, it's worth every tear and frustration and anger and love.

Friends and I have shared desperations over failed wedding plans over the past year-- some of us have become bitter and hopeless about it. I also went through the same thing maybe not with the same intensity as the others-- but I know how it felt to want something so badly and not see it happen.

But life is not about schedules, and love is not about planned occasions.

Things always happen for a reason. And though the reasons may be those I will refuse to understand-- I will surrender.

Because I love. And in my heart I know it is the love I'm meant to have.

So here's a toast to a lovefull 2008-- that may not end in a wedding as earlier planned, but at least a peep into a beautiful wedding.. somewhere, sometime when stars conspire to make it real-- finally.